getting introspective, part 2

another perk of graduating early..
i feel bad for saying this, but i can't help but feel a little resentment towards my friends and my 'high school' life. i mean they're all nice people, no doubt, but unfortunately they're not the people who stimulate me intellectually at ALL or inspire me to become a better, smarter person. i don't know. i guess what i'm saying is that the person i want to become isn't 'cool' because they were up for homecoming queen, or were named the class clown, or had a ton of friends, or clothes, or boyfriends, whatever. although i'm grateful to have had a bunch of close friends the past four years (and i have had a lot of fun with them!), i am really beginning to dislike the way some of those people choose to act, and i don't want to fall into one of those traps. without trying to sound like a superior ass, i would be lying if i said i wasn't looking forward to getting away from all that junk and 'bad' influence. this is tough. i sound like a total pessimist; i defnitely have faith in mankind, i just think teenagers are impressionable idiots (myself included sometimes). ha.