an empowered and informed member of society

i have a theory. if you buy overpriced spirit wear from a college bookstore after being instantly accepted (what a feat) at their campus preview day, you will end up going there. there is simply no way around this, and that's the only way i'm able to explain my enrollment to UT next fall. going there and living at home is absolutely positively not what i had planned for myself, but it feels like that is my only option. the UT guarantee is a bit of a joke the way it's advertised; i won't be a rocket for free, but i wouldn't be a buckeye free of charge either. while i am majorly disappointed and can't stop the 'if only i was smarter/richer/poorer/more athletic' mantra running through my brain, i am working on seeing the bright side of this situation... as soon as i get over being (almost) 18 and needing to get the hell out of dodge.

while on the subject of school.. i imagine humanities courses in college to be interesting and stimulating. my watered down high school one is anything but. it's so aggravating to me that our teacher won't commit and sit down and hit us in the head with some real philosophical concepts and ideas.. instead she shows us a million episodes of scrubs and lets that 'stew' inside of us. every once in a while we'll have a class discussion, but somehow the prompt 'why are we here? what is our purpose? do we even have one?' gets changed to how jay z probably worships the devil. maybe i'm just missing the point. i was really hoping that this class would teach me more and help me expand on my own personal philosophies, but i think i'm gonna have to keep on relying on wikipedia.
although my humanities class kinda bites, i have an awesome psychology teacher. that class is the one i count on to get me thinking, and to keep me thinking. after watching the intro to 'dreamworlds 3: desire, sex, and power in music video' in class, i went home and decided to check it out. it's about the humongous influence the media, especially music videos, has on sexualizing our youth and it's manipulation of our general ideas about genders roles in society.. i think that this is an issue that young people should know about and be aware of, and not fall prey to. while i enjoyed it, i'm not willing to get up on my soap box and wholeheartedly preach everything that sut jhally is saying... i don't care for the whole pretentious social activist thing one bit. i guess i just appreciate the fact that i have a teacher who is presenting ideas like this to students who otherwise might not care, might not know about, might not have access to.